Clean

📍 Chile 🇨🇱 

This is the story of Estela García, narrated by her, sitting in a room, to an unknown audience, most likely, the readers. Estela works as a housemaid in Santiago for a wealthy couple, the señor Cristóbal Jensen and the senõra Mara López, who is pregnant when Estela joins them. She also assumes the role of nanny to their child, Julia. Estela spends seven years working for the family, being both, the most obedient maid and the most doting nanny. Her original plan was never to remain in Santiago for so long, away from her mother and the Chilean countryside. Despite her innate hatred for her job and her intense longing to be with her mother, she continues serving the family so that she can provide comfort and financial assistance back home. However, things take a turn for the worse when there is a sudden, suspicious death in the family (revealed on the very first page of the book) that is labelled a murder, and Estela becomes the likely suspect.

Clean is an ominous, atmospheric novel. The characters seldom interact with each other and there is very little dialogue. Despite this, Estela presents us with vivid imagery of the people around her and their relationships. For the entirety of the book, we remain inside Estela’s mind experiencing every situation through her point of view. Her voice is dominant, resounding, clean and crisp, even though, as a maid she remains submissive, docile and mostly mute. Class divide, social hierarchy and status become quietly conspicuous in the few interactions between her and others. The couple’s privilege and affluence shape Estela’s rage, envy and resentment, giving them a life of their own as she meanders through her mundane existence. 

Julia, the child, is portrayed as precocious and problematic, with behavioural issues and a difficult relationship with food. She is both obstinate and yielding, switching effortlessly between the two. There is also the interesting character of Yany, a dog who becomes both a source of emotional distress and a medium of catharsis for Estela. Her somewhat skewed relationship with Yany provides a nuanced, indirect insight into her struggles with accepting affection. 

Alia Trabucco Zerán is a Chilean writer whose debut novel, The Remainder, was critically acclaimed and shortlisted for the International Booker Prize 2019. Clean has been translated from the Spanish by Sophie Hughes, who has been nominated for International Booker Prize five times. It also won the prestigious Prix Femina Étranger in 2024, a French literary prize established in 1985 that specifically recognises the best foreign novel translated into French. Zerán has written Clean as a psychological thriller that cleverly masquerades as social commentary, as well as a satire on societal class struggles and the economic disenfranchisement that prevails across large sections of Chile. Through Estela, she gives a voice to the unheard, unseen, overlooked and often dismissed. 

A chilling robbery sequence in the book automatically transforms from fear and intimidation into an exploration of classism and discrimination. Zerán’s writing is confident, cerebral and candid. She deftly introduces complex emotional situations with a composure that always carries an undercurrent of palpable anxiety. Zerán has given us an unlikeable protagonist who is curious and cunning and never relinquishes her stoicism even in the midst of chaos, but who is also very demanding of our attention and empathy. 

Clean remains an unfinished story because it was never meant to be finished. It was never a thriller to be solved or a murder mystery to be decoded. Alia Trabucco Zerán keeps us wondering about everything as Estela narrates a cryptic climax, assuming that we can read her mind. 

But can we, though? 

~ JUST A GAY BOY. 😧

Off-White

📍 Suriname 🇸🇷 

Bee Vanta is sick and she knows she’s dying. She is the matriarch of her large estranged family and has been disappointed with everyone’s life choices. She, a white Dutch woman married a Black man, Anton, who served in the military. Winston, the apple of her eye, abandons her and goes off to the Netherlands, and establishes a life there with his partner Lya, never to return. Louise, her daughter, has four children, Heli, Imker, Babs and Audi, from different men, and has difficulty in sustaining relationships with men because of the cycles of exploitation and abuse. Laura, her other daughter, suffers a psychological collapse after her partner’s deception and now resides in an asylum. Rogier, her last son, is a doctor in the Netherlands, who left Bee and Suriname for a better life. Bee suffers the biggest setback when her favourite granddaughter, Heli, also decides to go to the Netherlands to pursue her dreams. Imker takes it upon herself to care for her grandmother and decides to live with Bee and tends to her with utmost love and affection, cooking for her, cleaning the house and even bathing her. As Bee navigates her distraught relationships both in memory and in person, she struggles to accept the crumbling dynamics of her family, the love which seems distant and unattainable, and she questions everything that has led her to this day, her decisions and mistakes including a secret, a dark and ruthless chapter of her life, that has cost her equanimity and composure leading to a permanent fissure within her heart. 

Off-White is a story that is embroiled in the familial interpersonal relationships and unresolved conflicts, differences and heartaches. The various mother-daughter relationships which form the greater part of the narrative are shrouded in lethargic love, abysmal animosity and a conspicuous callousness. These women seem to carry the intergenerational traumas and a sense of repentance unbeknownst to them, struggling to understand its history, that has cast a spell on their present and that which is also threatening to ruin their future. 

Bee hasn’t come to terms with Louise’s choices in life and doesn’t think highly about her. According to Bee, Louise’s inability to have a husband has been her downfall and hence the necessity for her promiscuity. Bee has also internalised Laura’s shame for being unstable and depressed. Louise tries to maintain a stoic facade when internally she remains fragile and fundamentally distracted. Her repeated attempts to seek companionship, despite countless betrayals, can seem as a call of defiance in the times of hopelessness, but simultaneously it also portrays her adamancy in embracing solitude. Heli, though charted her own escape from the confines and traps of an overbearing and dysfunctional family, is unable to resist the melancholy that it has brought in its wake. She is also juggling a strangely toxic relationship with a married man, who is in Suriname while indulging in passionate encounters with another man in the Netherlands. This dichotomy and dishonesty claims her spirit and consciousness as she meanders through one questionable choice after another. Imker, seems to have intentionally decided to clean up the emotional mess of her family. Whilst caring for Bee, she chooses to distance herself from a maternal illusion and a sisterly loss. As she focuses on her two other siblings, she tries to objectively analyse the desolation that Louise and Heli have left in her life. Her relationship with a Muslim man, Umar, gives her perspective, possibility and permission to have wants and needs and somewhere during this journey she starts to find her personality.

Off-White is one of those demanding works of literature that has been written deliberately to unsettle you. It is controversial, convoluted and courageous. It hides the blasphemy in the whispers of secrecy and inconvenience. It is inconsistent, indelibly unconventional yet remains as a potent offering of love, compassion and forgiveness. The book explores dysfunctional relationships and dissects its origins and decay. The narrative sensitively captures the sexual exploration, experience and exploitation of the various women characters. The sexuality is boldly infinite, the sexual violence squeamish and shocking. The book also delves into the politics of colourism and racism and how skin colour can influence kinship and familial ties. The title of the book, Off-White, is in fact rather symbolic and almost feels like a scathing critique on the racial inadequacies of the society at large. 

The characters in the book provoke you as a reader, compel you to submit to their chosen adversities, to accept their misfortunes and mindless perversity. At the same time, they exhibit catharsis through their flaws and friction. The daughters and granddaughters of Bee seem to be acting as a receptacle of her maternal malevolence and benevolence, as Bee continues to self-flagellate for her prejudices and pride. This trickles down through the progeny as her children and grandchildren inherit the same tendencies and continue to lead lives that can only be described as off-colour. 

Astrid Roemer, is a Surinamese Dutch writer and teacher, and the first Caribbean author to win the P.C. Hooft Award (a Dutch-language literary lifetime achievement award) in 2016. In 2021, she received the Prijs der Nederlandse Letteren (the most prestigious literary award in the Dutch speaking world, awarded every three years) becoming the first Surinamese winner. Her book, On A Woman’s Madness, first published in Dutch in 1982, was translated into English and published in February 2023. In September 2023, it was longlisted for the National Book Award for Translated Literature, and in 2025 was longlisted for the International Booker Prize. Off-White, was first published in Dutch in 2019, and its English translation was published in 2024. The translators, Lucy Scott and David McKay, have done a prodigious job in translating this monumental work of Roemer. 

Astrid Roemer is a tour de force in the world of literature. Her writing is problematic, poignant and purposeful. She writes to explore the endless possibilities of living and existing. Suriname is the soul of Off-White as she takes us on a geographical journey from Paramaribo to Nieuw Nickerie. The story is Surinamese in its entirety and Roemer hasn’t made any concessions or given any explanations for people who aren’t Surinamese or familiar with the country. The colonial history of Suriname is the silent subtext that courses through every page in the book. The language is piercing and punishing in equal measure. Roemer’s Off-White is an affirmation of the fact that a book can be a masterclass in storytelling and a masterpiece of literature while retaining its integrity and authenticity. 

If Han Kang illuminated the fragility of the human condition, Astrid Roemer exposes its fractures with equal brilliance. Having said that, I think I have a new favourite. 

~ JUST A GAY BOY. 👏👏