This is me.
Beautiful and flawed.
Caring and conflicted.
I was hiding.
Had my wings clipped.
I did it myself.
I was scared.
To be ME.
Never had realised ,
That the universe had already defined ME.
I just had to own it.
Easy peasy?
Anything but that.
It’s difficult to own your truth and happiness.
I had to unlock my gay-dom.
There lied the key to a realm of love and liberation.
It’s one step at a time.
Just having declared years ago, wasn’t enough;
Now i discern.
It’s also about doing all that i love .
Bringing my cravings to fruition.
Breaking my own barriers.
Being gay.
My heels make me happy.
I own myself just a little more, everytime I twirl in them.
My clothes make me fabulous.
And i love myself more.
This journey was never meant to be simple and subtle.
But why did i stop having fun?
As i dab on my gloss,
I wonder,
If its too gay, too shiny?
Hell, yeah!!
Wasn’t it always supposed to be so?
Well, now I know!
~ JUST A GAY BOY.
the shiny diaries 